A new challenge for the coming weeks. I hope to see this through. 🙂
From Refresh Sundays for my travel experiences to this, there sure are a lot more to enjoy in 2017.
Tag: challenge
Hapunan
Pumipintig ang sintido ng babaeng nakaupo sa may pasilyo
Bitbit ang kakapiranggot na kita mula sa buong maghapon
Tinatapik-tapik lamang ang ulo,
Nagbabakasakaling mawala ang kirot
Inuulit ang dasal na kinabisado simula pa noon
Aba, Ginoong Maria napupuno ka ng grasya
Sa iilang barya pa, mapupuno na ang kanyang bulsa
Makauuwi na’t makapaghahain ng hapunan
Malugod na pagsasaluhan ng dalawang pamilya
Sa babaeng nakaupo at sa panganay niyang binatilyo
Sa tulong ng patuloy na pamamalimos
Ng inang iniwan ang lahat sa kahapon
Matapang na hinaharap ang takbo ng panahon
Mag-aantanda ng krus, sisimulan ang pagpapasalamat
Ang Panginoon ay sumasaiyo
Isang buong araw na naman ang natapos
Nairaos kahit papaano ang anim na musmos at ang magsing-irog
Bukod kang pinagpala sa babaeng lahat
Pumipintig ang sintido ng babaeng nakaupo sa may pasilyo
Bitbit ang kakapiranggot na kita mula sa buong maghapon
At pinagpala naman
Ang ‘yong anak na si Hesus
Santa Maria, Ina ng Diyos
Ipanalangin mo kaming makasalanan
Ngayon at kung kami’y mamamatay
Amen
Chasing the Writing Bug
There are numerous opportunities for me to start bringing life to the unimaginable stories out of my head. But most of the time I slack off instead. Then getting annoyed at the end because of wasted hours.
Frustrations
Writing has always been one of my toughest frustrations (next to singing). I’m aware of how random I could be throughout the day, so I’ve got to make use of my productive hours well. However, the actual writing tends to come rarely these days. 😥 This is due to my lack of a fixed writing habit. I try to be consistent with my schedule, but distractions greet me which I embrace so openly.
Bothersome distractions
Online sites are the worst!
Rainy Days, Films, and a Hot Cup of Coffee
Multiple raindrops can trigger a lasting sensation. There aren’t much to do on rainy days. How I wish I could go back to my younger years when I can dance in the rain without any worries to bother me. Now that I’m 22, I find other musings to keep me company. There are dozens of books waiting for me to finally pick them up. Different notebooks lay bare on my table (sometimes on the bookshelf, or possibly under my bed) because I hoped to write when I suddenly have some incredible ideas. Sad to say, those notebooks are gathering more dust than letters.
Adult worries come in different forms: work, responsibility, forgotten dreams. Aside from all of those concerns, the worst trouble I have now is getting distracted so easily. When I turn on my computer, online sites distract me. When I try to write some notes, other things on my table distract me. When I try to read a book, my thoughts distract me. There is an endless cycle of starting and getting distracted; going back but end up procrastinating. That’s why now, I wish to limit all of these distractions to one or two things (hopefully I have enough willpower to do so).
Getting Stuck and Moving On
There are some days when I feel really stuck in life, and that it’s difficult to ever get back on my feet. Challenges and worries overpower hope and motivation. Trying so hard to return to my most productive state is a feat that is closer to impossible. This is me when negativity takes over…
However, I have faith that there’s a purpose for everything. My current situation will probably make sense in another day, week, or even a year. Those moments are the most surprising ones which freely gives off my unwavering smile. A satisfaction of getting through the storm and moving forward. How I wish I could see myself at that moment again. I am still waiting. Pinching, punching, forcing myself to continue moving forward. At times, I look back. Not for regret but for inspiration. Changes that happened throughout the years before I came to my current position. Those make me grateful for everything.
Now, I have to continue. Press every button and find the green one. Gently guide my fingers and toes. Small steps. Little by little.
Breaking Free of My Writing Paralysis
I haven’t written much for weeks. July is almost done, but I’m still floating across the flight of my mind. This is the phase I consider as my writing paralysis. A state of writing depression when nothing seems to “inspire” me to pick up my pen and start writing. Maybe it’s the weather or my personal predicaments right now, or worst my laziness.
I hate the days when I feel too lazy to write. Instead of working on a poem or a story, I would simply grab a book to kill the time. Even though I have dozens of reminders (notes) about different storylines that I want to work on, I still procrastinate. Escaping the responsibility of writing, and simply hoping for other distractions/chores/excuses to come by. This habit got me paralyzed for so long, that I couldn’t even finish writing a two stanza poem. 😥
However, over the weekend, I was able to slowly go back on track with writing assignments and free writing in front the TV set. This new habit gradually made me grew familiar with the distractions around and work my way out of those.
For now, I am still writing Exploring Limbo. Luckily, I’m able to work until the second part of the collection. 😀
Then for the meantime, I’m continuously focusing my writing in my hub. There are multiple informative articles that I’ve done which helped in my steps to writing again. Hope these will be a good start to write more.
Online Writing Activities
In the past few weeks, I haven’t really got into writing. There were a lot of distractions around, and even when I turn on my laptop I can’t do much. The internet made me busy with aimless clicking, random musings, and left me unproductive yet with so much time typing. I personally get overly excited with little things that I focus a lot of my time to them.. For instance, in just the past two weeks, I have ventured in keeping my tumblr account active (oh my college days), then I got into instagram (it took me ages to follow the trend). I also got into writing in tablo for some random amusement of having to see my works in book form. However, with all those activities, I lose certain focus with what to write. 😦
It is great to see many opportunities in the world wide web, but I have got to get a grip of myself and find the right path/medium for my writing. Hope to have more poems this coming days. I also need to get out more often to find new inspiration because I think I’m turning into a hermit living under a rock.
It’s a Wrap
Life eats more and grows bigger
Moving the waves of confusion higher
There are fears that linger much longer
Strangling the air for breathing narrower
Worries come day in and day out
Nights fall asleep with my eyes shut
Waiting and praying for an escape
Reasons leaving my sanity away
A final mark of my identity
Imprinted on a piece of tin
Perfect for a final tag on me
An identifiable label for my family
It’s a wrap, no one needs to go
Crying on the side of the road
Waving their hands goodbye
For my eyes won’t see beyond the dark
Sensibility
A hundred and a half of pages a day
Eats a lot of time a man could take
But through this, his life continues to break
Waiting for the book that would repay
A man’s stolen heart from the deep lake
Poetry is the collection of the best words the man could keep
Reaching as far or as deep as any hand would seek
Through the one thousand four hundred and forty minutes at the peak
Dreaming and scratching, unimportant passengers come to leap
Words come and go, through the mind and mouth of younger souls
Searching for the exit sign, trying their best to crawl
Broken nails and calloused flesh, don’t bother a bit on each fall
The end is better resting on the hope of all weeping call
Once he thought that he could really be
Then reality knocks and breaks all of him
Cursing, lying, telling the truth for all to see
No one’s going to survive the fate to flee
This is the poetry of illusion-filled dream
Hopping as joyously as anyone would ever be
Lucky Star
A lucky star for one night
Can brighten even the saddest child
Across the room at one corner there
A heart pounding, praying well
Though time flies by quickly
The dream made a fool of the innocent
Cruelty faced the lucky star
It’s a fake, cried the child
Wish and hope to a distant light
Won’t help an inch in my despair
Foolish thought shouldn’t linger long
I shall tell my own to grow fast as well
Do not believe a lucky star?
Stand and make your own path
Worries and dark corners collide
To someone playing at the light coming from the sky
