The river was filled with crystal clear water that I could see the blue pebbles sleeping along the riverbed. Blue pebbles? Sleeping? Yes. But then that was not the thing that surprised me. As I walked near the river, I saw a reflection. My face was not the same anymore. I saw myself with a pair of brown eyes, full lips, a light tan skin, and long black hair. I was no longer a man, but was an average girl. There was no longer the splendor of a man but was replaced by the tenderness of more or less a woman. I knew there that I was not that strong as a man yet I was really a graceful woman.
There were eyes staring at me. They were coming from behind. There were some from the sky. The pebbles woke up. They too had their eyes opened and they started to stare. They saw how I was turned into a lady-like puppet. My eyes, nose, ears, lips, hair, all were altered. My hair braided with the freshly cut grass from the riverside. My lips were full with the touch of red blood which came out of my fingers. My ears were just of the right size with a pair of pear earrings pinned on each side. My nose was not so pointy, yet not so square. My eyes reflecting the clear view yet displayed its dashing brown gaze.
They sky started to fall its purple, pink, blue, and orange hues that everything started to dance. Songs danced along the horizon. They were not just words, lines, but were accompanied by musical notes. I saw a quarter note then a whole note after a half note. The cleft was floating along the skyline with the lines of my favorite song. The thought of being lost and neglected was forgotten as the song finished its course.
It was my heaven. The silence of the place gave the meaning of the whole experience. I never grew tired, never wished to sleep, always in solitude. Every move I made was a window to a new plae. Until I felt the tingling sensation under my feet that I started to laugh, and I laughed so hard like never before. There was some feeling starting to possess my body. I was laughing but still there was no sound. I laughed with my eyes closed and my arms wrapped around my waist, slightly holding my tummy for it started to hurt. I felt tears fell on my cheeks then I opened my eyes. I was in heaven no more.
I had forgotten about my heart. The radiating lights of purple, pink, and blue. The dazzling heart was now a heart of a loving woman. No more wars to fight but more lives to love. Though, I lost the place of my escape. I was back in our time. This was a different experience indeed. I had forgotten all about the heaven I used to love for I had to face the reality that awaits.
Fingers. Nails.
Screeching sounds.
Blood.
Fingers. Nails, no more.
Yakapin 